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Archive for November, 2010

Video of Hyun Joong @ “Petty Romance” VIP Premiere


Credit: leenongkan2 @ YT


Exquisite Fan Made Drawings


These are  really cute  Seung Jo and Hani drawings, such talent is amazing!

credit: blog.naver.sswedding











Stars as Fashion Models


credit as tagged + khj baidu

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Hyun Joong – Sponsor ELLE luggage


Credit: http://blog.naver.com/emax2271 + SS501 Baidu

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Hyun Joong @ Singapore i-weekly Magazine [2010.11.29]


Magazine scan: PlanetHyun.blogspot.com
Please repost with full credit

Partial English Translation: PlanetHyun.blogspot.com
Please repost with full credit

‘Kim’ schedule!
1 December @ 09:20pm – Arrival via KE641
2 December @ 03:50pm – Shop visit at Tampines Mall TheFaceShop
3 December @ 10.45am – Shop visit at IMM TheFaceShop
3 December @ 11.00am – Before the fan meeting at IMM 3 floor Garden Plaza, will hold an charity auction for Kim HyunJoong life size standee, auction price starts from $150, auction proceeds will be donated to WorldVision One Life Fund.
*For more details, please visit TheFaceShop facebook.

Update! What is Kim HyunJoong busy with recently?
* After completing ‘Naughty Kiss’ filming, Kim HyunJoong will come back as a singer beginning next year, releasing his solo album. Recently when being interviewed, he insisted that SS501 will not disband, as all 5 members have been seperated in 4 different agencies, there might be difficulties to have group activities, so for now they are having their solo activities.

* Previously in CNN Korea Special, they have placed special focus on Kim HyunJoong who ingnited a heated Hallyu wave in Youtube, and classified him as the new generation star that lead the Hallyu wave. To this Kim HyunJoong mentioned: “I am not a Hallyu star yet. This terms is still too far-fetched to me, however I am making preparation, Bae YongJoon hyung has actually given me great help.”


Yahoo Buzz Voting Trends & Screen Captures


Posted by azi 11.30.2010 3:29 p.m.

According to an email that I received  from Yahoo Korea in response to my queries, votes for the other contender come  from overseas and there seems no reason to think that those were invalid.  On the other hand, a Korean fansite was able to capture real time changes in the influx of votes and there was  a very clear irregular voting pattern.

It seems like Yahoo Korea needs proof of this irregularity, in addition to the fact that we had difficulties accesing the voting site  on  November 27 and  28,  for them to take action, so I urge whoever reading this to send a formal complaint to their customer service, links are provided below, and don’t forget to copy paste this post as an attachment to your email:

1. http://kr.helpboard.yahoo.com/helpfeedback/a_frontpage.html

Alternate email address:

2. frontpage-help@cckr.yahoo-inc.com

Proof # 1

For the sake of  analysis, let me do some trending base on the data posted below. Excluding the bulk amount of votes for contenders (i.e with green highlights), the normal  voting scenario is this:  in 62 minutes, Kim Hyun Joong got 22,395 votes while Jan Geun Suk got  597 in total.  Further analysis :  KHJ gets an average of 361.2 votes per minute while JGS gets an average of  9.63 votes only, or a mere 2.67 % of what KHJ’s  total. Simply put, the votes ratio is 37:1 in favor of KHJ.  If JGS managed to garner a meager 3% compared to KHJ votes, where did the bulk votes for JGS came from?  Trends for increase can be ascertained by mere looking at the 3rd and 5th column below.  One need not be a math expert to tell the anomalous pattern.

re-posted from: http://micon.miclub.com/board/viewArticle.do?artiNo=81955382&listCateNo=261&listPage=1

column 1 : time , column 2: KHJ Total Votes, column 3 : KHJ Increase in votes, column 4 : JGS Total Votes, column 5: JGS increase in votes

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Proof # 2

re-posted from blog.daum.net/miniquilt and captured by Ralph@KHJ0606.com

This one captures the trend from 7:15 to 7:47 am 32 minutes trend.  In that span of time excluding the bulk votes which is highlighted in red, KHJ got  8,621 (ave. 269.4 / minute) votes while JGS got 234 (ave. 7.31/minute) votes. If we compare it with the our 5:34 to 6:36 trend, we still get the same ratio of 37: 1 votes in favor of Kim Hyun Joong.  So what does this trends tells us?  Are we being deceived by our own eyes?  The most important question is : WE HAVE THE FACTS, WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO ABOUT IT?

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Proof # 3

Screen captures made by Meteorflower dated 11.29.2010, wherein two different results where shown by Yahoo.

a.) Capture Time : 09:10 p.m Date :  11.29.2010

Votes:  KHJ  = 4,931,386

JGS   =  4,182,810

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b.) Capture Time : 09:18 p.m  Date:  11.29.2010

Votes:  KHJ  = 2,555,555

JGS   =     990,530
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That was not the first time that Yahoo showed increasing/decreasing results in that category, it has been happening the whole day of November 29, 2010.

Proof #4

To further support that, here is another capture from blog.daum.net/miniquilt dated November 30, 2010.  Take note of the time and the number of votes too.

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Proof # 5

These are the most vital ones, simply because it shows how the fans of the other contender were able to amassed millions of votes in just two days.  Honestly, so their idol got huge number of votes, but did they think that he will be happy to receive an award won through anomalous  means?

Here are the screen captures of the software they used to manipulate the votes, complete with download links and tutorials, the Thailand version even have the exact coordinates!

This one is used by the Hongkong forum http://sukstar-hk.com/bbs/index.php !

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JGS fans in Thailand did the same.. they even instructed fans step by step.

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So now, tell me, is this fair or what?

Please spread the word about this and send complains to Yahoo Korea.  We are not doing this to gain prestige nor recognitions for Kim Hyun Joong or our fan sites, we just wanted everything to be fair, let us do our part and not let our time and efforts be wasted by losing to an AUTOCLICK!

We lost in numbers but we have not lost the war….!


Stars attend ‘Petty Romance’ VIP movie premiere


credit: allkpop

Various stars were seen on the red carpet for the VIP premiere of the latest romantic comedy movie, ‘Petty Romance’, which was held on the night of November 29th.

The movie is about an adult comic writer (Lee Sun Gyun) who meets a sex columnist (Choi Kang Hee) who is anything but sexy. Conflict and fireworks between them are aplenty because of their different characters, but they have a common denominator: a vivid imagination.

 

Stars who were present include Park Bo Young, Ryeo Won, Kim Ha Neul, Bae Yong Joon, Ji Hyun Woo, Choi Daniel, Kahi, Kim Jung Ah, Kim Hyun Joong, and Yoo Ah In, among others.

Check out the red carpet pictures, and be sure to check out the trailer below too!

[youyube=http://www.youtube.com/v/0PSzYcOen_o&hl=en_US&feature=player_embedded&version=3]

 


Hyun Joong Featured in Singapore Magazines


This is from U – Weekly Magazine


This one from Singapore Weekly Magazine

Weekly Magazine -Singapore – courtesy of meteorflower

Thanks!




Media Photos – KHJ & BYJ at Petty Romance VIP Movie Premiere


credit as tagged +501ode.blogspot.com

VIP Premiere of movie [Petty Romance] starring Lee Sun-gyun, Choi Kang Hee etc took place at Lotte Cinema on 29th November evening.

This movie depicts the comical love story between a manhwa author (Lee Sun-gyun) and a sex columnist who only knows how to blow trumpets of herself.

-next bit omits about this movie-

[Petty Romance] opens in cinemas on December 2 onwards.















Hyun Joong With His Fitness Trainer


I’m re-posting this from IMMISCHIEVOUS blog, a photo of  Hyun Joong with his trainer.  I don’t know when was this taken but judging from his looks, I say this is an old picture.  The man’s blog is the main source of the photo.

Who would have thought that gray shorts and black shirts can look that sexy!

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Dear All Overseas Fans of Kim Hyun Joong:


I got this from twitter,  and I share the same sentiments that she does, so let us show our support for Hyun Joong and keep on voting!

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On Monday 29th November 2010, @imMissChievous said:

Dear All Overseas Fans To Kim Hyun Joong

I have experienced difficulties to vote normally for Hyunjoong since last weekend (to be exact, it has been so since Friday 26 Novemeber, around 10 pm (Korean Time). While we were not able to vote normally from here, votes continued to be counted in favour of Hyunjoong’s competitor :< over the weekend, scoring now a couple of millions votes only for last two days. Moreover, Yahoo Korea claims that the sudden increase for the competitor has occurred in the places other than Korea, thus they think the vote that the competitor got was valid somehow.

As at 18.30 pm (Korean Time) Korean Yahoo seems to claim that they have not found any irregularities in their voting system and server after investigation. However, we all know that we all have had difficulties to connect, sign-in and vote over the weekend (and now). While we are waiting for Korean Yahoo’s more responsible response about this disappointed situation, please keep voting to show our faith that we have built together last month!

What we can do:
1. Please keep voting. (e.g. using Mac, or Try to change web browser from Explorer to Safari, Firefox, Google Crome, or Opera)
2. Please keep taking screen captures when you cannot sign-in normally. (or record a video!)
3. Please share your stories via DCInside Kimhyunjoong Gallery, Youtube or your fan boards!

Despite of such difficulties, I have continued to vote for him and I will continue to vote for him as I know (and we all know) that I must keep going to the end as this disappointing situation is also a part of our valuable memories to support Hyunjoong. Voting takes time and efforts of all of us. We all know that but we have been happy to participate in voting because it was him who was the candidate!

We, Korean fans, will do our best in order to investigate whether any illegal votes have been counted. In the mean time, please show your support to Hyunjoong!

Thank you for your support!


Dear All Overseas Fans To Kim Hyun Joong


I got this from twitter,  and I share the same sentiments that she does, so let us show our support for Hyun Joong and keep on voting!

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On Monday 29th November 2010, @imMissChievous said:

Dear All Overseas Fans To Kim Hyun Joong

I have experienced difficulties to vote normally for Hyunjoong since last weekend (to be exact, it has been so since Friday 26 Novemeber, around 10 pm (Korean Time). While we were not able to vote normally from here, votes continued to be counted in favour of Hyunjoong’s competitort :< over the weekend, scoring now a couple of millions votes only for last two days. Moreover, Yahoo Korea claims that the sudden increase for the competitor has occurred in the places other than Korea, thus they think the vote that the competitor got was valid somehow.

As at 18.30 pm (Korean Time) Korean Yahoo seems to claim that they have not found any irregularities in their voting system and server after investigation. However, we all know that we all have had difficulties to connect, sign-in and vote over the weekend (and now). While we are waiting for Korean Yahoo’s more responsible response about this disappointed situation, please keep voting to show our faith that we have built together last month!

What we can do:
1. Please keep voting. (e.g. using Mac, or Try to change web browser from Explorer to Safari, Firefox, Google Crome, or Opera)
2. Please keep taking screen captures when you cannot sign-in normally. (or record a video!)
3. Please share your stories via DCInside Kimhyunjoong Gallery, Youtube or your fan boards!

Despite of such difficulties, I have continued to vote for him and I will continue to vote for him as I know (and we all know) that I must keep going to the end as this disappointing situation is also a part of our valuable memories to support Hyunjoong. Voting takes time and efforts of all of us. We all know that but we have been happy to participate in voting because it was him who was the candidate!

We, Korean fans, will do our best in order to investigate whether any illegal votes have been counted. In the mean time, please show your support to Hyunjoong!

Thank you for your support!

 


Compilation of Photos from Recent News Articles


credit:  blog.daum.net/ds3fan /

He’s so handsome in all of them, looking at these made me forget the ongoing Yahoo Buzz fiasco for a while!














Compilation of Japanese Articles Featuring Hyun Joong


credit: blog.daum.net/elley0606

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High Cut Korea Additional Photos


credit: khj baidu

So cute, he’s playing with his hand phone!

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11/29 [news] SS501 Greets “Debut 2000 days, We Are Still One”


Credits : star.mt.co.kr + SS601.com + (English Translation) xiaochu @ Quainte501.com

REPOST WITH FULL CREDITS ONLY

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On 28-Nov, 5-member male group SS501 had their 2000 days of debut and expressed their thankfulness to their fans.

SS501’s magnae HyungJun wished for the best for 5 members through his own twitter account “It’s 2000 days already~ I pray for all 5 of us to work hard and be filled only with even happier things”.

In addition he said “And Green Peas who have always walked beside us , thank you ^^ Mansae Mansae Mansae” conveying his thankful message to the fans.

Lead vocal YoungSaeng said in a cute manner congratulating their 2000 days “Today is already 2000days?? Time flies~~~” and “You and I, we are all (growing) old together~keke”

KyuJong also expressed his thankfulness with the flood of fans’ congratulatory messages “Thank you!! Let’s congratulate each other!!!^^”

With an upcoming album release, JungMin expressed ”It’s 2000 days! I am with this guy HyungJunnie while he posted (tweet?) himself keke Thank you to those who have given us love beyond that in these 2000 days !!^^”

In addition, JungMin watched HyungJun’s musical play ‘Café-in’ and left a supportive message “Will be looking forward to it! Strive on!^^ Please give lots of love to Café-in!”

Meanwhile, SS501 ended their contract with their initial agency DSP Media in June and members signed with different agencies.

With this, it is a happy mood with fans congratulating them for their 2000 days and members leaving thanks messages. Despite concerns on their disbandment, they kept their 2000 days and showed their friendship, fans supported by sending ‘Happy 2000 days!’ messages.

They congratulated 2000 days with messages such as “I am very grateful that all 5 members were being mentioned” “We will be together not only for 2000 days but even for 20 years” “Please show us all 5 of you standing on the stage”


[PHOTO] Kim Hyun Joong Spotted Eating at Restaurant 101128


So happy to see his photo today.
I thought we will see his new pic @ JYJ Concert yesterday…
but none ^^:::
Today, Kim Hyun Joong spotted eating at unknown restaurant
the way he’s holding the chopstick is still the same
hahaha..i thought you change, hyun joong-ah ^^
지난 번 포스팅이 너무 뜨거웠는데 당췌 싸인이나 사진은 없었지요.
그런데
그 날 식사 하신 지인분이 사진을 보내주셨어요 ^^:::
화질이나 상태가 영 별로지만 즐감하세요우~
바로 옆자리서 식사하셨는데 안에서 못 찍고
밖에서 유리창 너머로 찍으셨데요 ㅋ

 

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Please Be Nice To Me Performance Cut at BOF Alumni DVD


Credit:exlley


Playful Kiss YT Edition Episode 7 Captures


credit : mars@khj0606.com

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For Those Who Cannot Vote/Access in Yahoo Buzz Awards Voting Site – UPDATED


Posted by azi  11.28.2010 2.26 p.m.

We are all aware that we have been having difficulties in accessing this site http://kr.promotion.yahoo.com/asiabuzz2010/ to vote for Hyun Joong in Yahoo Buzz Awards  since yesterday, November 27, 2010.  At the same time, there is a SIGNIFICANT increase in the VOTES for the number 2 contender.  We have been voting diligently for the past three weeks and we were not able to amassed almost 2 million votes, which in the case for the other contender, they’ve accomplished it overnight.  For me, this seems highly irregular, and we should call the attention of the organizer of this event/awards show.

For related inquiries /  suggestions / complaints,  you may send your message to this address posted in http://www.hyun-joong.com

http://kr.helpboard.yahoo.com/helpfeedback/a_frontpage.html

Please be aware that we do not want to pinpoint anything or anyone,  nor create any false accusations, we should just report this irregular event (for the lack of better terms to use)  to those in charge.

Also, use google translate to view the page in english :  http://translate.google.com.ph/#ko|en|

On a sidenote : Use Internet explorer to access this site http://kr.promotion.yahoo.com/asiabuzz2010/,  refresh that page whenever you want to cast your vote!

So now go ahead and let us show our support for Hyun-Joong.

Thank you.

 

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Update:

Some chinese fan from hyun-joong.com free board called the office of Yahoo but received no reply.

A korean fan from the fanboard of  hyun-joong. com received a reply from Yahoo Korea,  they said they will look into the matter tomorrow since today is Sunday.

So let us keep on voting!  Use internet explorer to vote and refresh the page if it freeze again!

here is the link: http://www.hyun-joong.com/bbs/view.asp?idx=7848&code=freeboard&searchopt=&searchkey=&category=&page=1

Here is the original post by 내음0606:

안녕하세요? 고객님.

야후! 코리아 고객센터 임현 입니다.

고객님께서는 야후! 아시아 버즈 어워드 2010에 접속이 되지 않거나

투표가 되지 않는 증상 및 장근석 후보의 투표 수가 급증하고 있는 증상으로 인해

문의 주신 것으로 확인됩니다.

우선 야후! 아시아 버즈 어워드 2010 에 참여해주신 점 대단히 감사드리며,

투표 진행 어려움으로 인해 불편을 드려 정말 죄송합니다.

말씀하신 증상은 담당부서에 전달하였습니다.

다만, 금일은 담당 부서팀의 주말 휴무로 월요일 오전에

해당 증상에 대해 빠르게 원인 파악을 하여 문제를 확인할 수 있도록

최대한 노력할 예정입니다. 이에 다소 시간이 걸릴 수 있는 점

고객님의 너그러운 마음으로 양해 부탁 드립니다.

고객님께서 투표를 진행하지 못해 많이 답답하시겠지만

빠른 시간 안에 정상적 이용이 가능하도록 최선을 다할 예정이오니

고객님께서도 너무 조급해하지 마시고 조금만 기다려주셨으면 합니다.

문제의 진행상황에 대해서는 늦어도 3일 이내에 다시 한번 안내 드리겠습니다.

저희 야후! 아시아 버즈 어워드 2010에 참여해 주시고,

오류에 대해서 알려주신 점 고개 숙여 깊이 감사 드립니다.

문제해결에 최선의 노력을 다할 것을 다시 한번 약속 드립니다.

고객님의 문의사항이 신속하게 해결될 수 있도록 노력하겠습니다.
혹시라도 다른 문의사항이나 궁금한 부분이 있으시면
언제든지 다시한번 저희 야후! 코리아 고객센터로 메일 부탁 드립니다.
항상 성심 성의껏 답변 드리겠습니다.

오늘도 행복한 하루 보내십시오.
감사합니다.

 

 

 

 


Vote for KHJ @ Yahoo Asian Buzz Awards


PLS. KEEP VOTING, # 2 is gaining more votes overnight!  Don’t Be Complacent!

Something is wrong with their website though, I can’t get in to vote!

INSTRUCTIONS ON HOW TO VOTE @ YAHOO ASIAN BUZZ
http://kr.promotion.yahoo.com/asiabuzz2010/


BOF Alumni Event BTS DVD Cuts


Once again, thanks to elley for uploading these in her YT account.  Behind the scenes showed KHJ is really a perfectionist when it comes to his stage performances and of course, he is his usual jolly 4D Self around his close friends Kim Jun, Kim Jun &  Go Hye Sun.

Part 1

Part 2

http://www.youtube.com/v/8yTM1CRQJpE?fs=1&hl=en_US


Boys Over Flowers Events DVD Captures


Thanks to elley for these captures. Stunning as always!

credit : blog.daum.net/elley0606

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Baek Seung Jo’s Diary Epilogue Part 1


http://www.imbc.com/broad/tv/drama/k…ary/index.html

Credit jina_bing_bang@Soompi for translation.
Original Entry at MBC Playful Kiss Homepage

SeungJo’s Diary Epilogue 1
Author: Lim Young Joo (Same person who wrote the youtube diaries)

Authors Note:
I am surprised that there are people still reading SeungJo’s diary although 장키 (Playful Kiss) has been over for a while ㅠㅠ
So I intend to give a present.
This is just a scribble of the after story for Playful Kiss, I wonder if people will read it…
Perhaps I will wish to make this one or two pieces
Because surprises are always pleasant.

<1 Year Later>
Kkong Dang Kkong Dang I can hear Hani coming up the stairs.
The sound of Hani coming back to my arms, My lips secretly make a smile.
“I’m Back”, Hani says in a cheerless voice (low energy, weak).
With the final stages of Hani studying for her test it takes lots of strength even protecting her from the side is pitiful.
Whoo~ She comes to my side as she exhales a sigh.
From my back hearing Hani’s heart makes me feel good.
Stealthily I lifted her arm and slightly gave the back of her a kiss.
A warm kiss was returned to my earlobe.
The short acts of skinship that come and go is like the fatigue of one spring day’s snow melting away.

“Is it really hard?”
“Yeah.”
It must really be hard she is not saying it is not.
“Wash up and quickly rest!”
“No, I have to study a little bit more. Tomorrow is the last mock test.”
“Do you want help?” “No, I will just do it on my own”
“What’s up with that? You didn’t ask for my help.”
“It must be hard for you too? I heard you have a test on the nervous system tomorrow”

I am moved by tears (It is a form of expression- He felt touched).
These days I see this fellow think deeply and see an effort in trying to stand on her own.
For a genius like me the terrible studies of medical school are taking little tolls on me as I am fatigued.
The material to study for medical school is massive so no one should study alone.
Either form a study group and share information with each other or receive the Sunbae’s records and study from that.
There are too many things to memorize.
I am thankful for the name of love to recognize and consider this.

“Hani, continue after you eat these late night snacks. My goodness! How can it be so hard?
Just have a child living comfortably and sweetly instead.”

As soon as I fell asleep mother silently came in.
These days mother is busy preparing late night snacks for Hani. At any rate my Hani will become a pig.

“Yes, Thank you. You do not have to do this, you cannot even sleep, If I am hungry I will figure it out.”
“No, you! This is how I live. I lived so much without having fun as I raised those two stiff siblings”
Of course it is something mother would say.

Ook! Suddenly Hani threw up. Why is this?

“Why is something wrong with the taste? Did it go bad? I just prepared it”
“No, Just I do not feel well. It must be because I am a bit tired”
“You…By chance do you have good news”

Mother’s assumptions are rising. I better stop her at this point.

“Mother! Please stop chatting and go downstairs to sleep. I have to go out early tomorrow morning. You do not have to brag about your mother in law/daughter in law relationship everyone already knows.”
“Oh? Did you wake up because of me? Sorry! Hani! If you don’t really feel well make sure to take some medicine!”
Mother who lowered her voice begged Hani and barely left to go downstairs.
After hearing several alarm clocks ringing Hani did not wake up.

“Isn’t it time for you to go to school? You have to get up!”

Okay, Hani says but as she tosses and turns she has no strength in her voice. As I place my hand on her forehead she has a slight fever.
Thoroughly examining her I see that she dark circles under her eyes have formed and her face doesn’t look good these days.
It looks like she is sick somewhere.

“It seems that you have a fever so going to the hospital seems good.”
“Okay, after going to school I will stop by the hospital and come home”

<Hani>
“What do I do? Pregnant already, I havent’ become a nurse yet and haven’t fulfilled anything.
First becoming a mother. I feel like a fool.
SeungJo is also studying busily and suddenly if he knows about having a baby then it would be harder, right?
If mother finds out she will certainly say to give up on studying
Am I supposed to give up my dreams like this? What should I do?

I have a heavy heart thinking that I may not be able to fufill my dream of becoming a nurse compared to having a pretty baby.
As soon as she came, mother poured questions at me.
It was apparent that she was anticipating something.
I just said that I had an upset stomach and went upstairs.
‘SeungJo, Hurry and come. What will I do?’

Even though I eagerly waited for SeungJo of course he was late today too.
Other students form study groups as if they were living together but since SeungJo is married he comes home even if it is late.
Will he be happy that suddenly we have a child in the midst of both studying and being busy?
While waiting for SeungJo a number of thoughts shook my feelings.
‘I should wait a little and tell him once both of our tests are over. Besides if I tell him concentrating on studying will be uneasy. Baby, I am sorry! It’s not that I am not joyous, it’s just that mom and dad are a bit busy. Sorry baby…’

<SeungJo>
“What did they say at the hospital? Are you okay?” “Yeah”
“Now next week is the test, are you confident?”
“Yeah, I am going to surely pass! For me, for you and for our bab, HMPH!”
Hani was talking but suddenly covered her mouth with her hand and stopped talking.
“What?” “Ah,, It’s nothing.”
“Dull, Your working hard, Pretty, My Hani! Just endure the hardship for a few more days.”

Drawing silent Hani by her hair into my arms I held her.
Soft breathes from Hani are felt above my chest.
I feel peace everyday in the arms of Hani.
Like lighting a firework slowly once on the forehead, second time on her earlobe I kiss her.
Slowly it is getting warmer. Like she was melting or soaking Hani was snuggling into my arms.
The faster her breathes got the deeper I wanted to snuggle with Hani but she slightly pushed me away.

“Why is something wrong? Do you not like it? It’s been a long time?”
“It’s because I am a bit tired, Sorry, maybe because of the test I am tense.”

I felt restless and hurt but seeing Hani really tired made these feelings release.

“Then, let me just hold you and sleep.”

Why is she likes this, is it really because of the test? It seems like she has a worry these days, it seems that she has been under lots of stress from the test, I must console her somehow.

<Hani>
Even though I was in SeungJo’s warm arms and getting kissed I couldn’t deal with the worries that were like tides coming in.

What to do? Can someone like me be a good mother? I’m not the brightest, a scatterbrain, accident prone and what if I also can’t be with my child like my mother?
I do not even want to think about this but this keeps piling up and is giving me strength.

‘SeungJo, What do I do. I wanted to become a mother after I fulfilled my dream and became a great person. Since it became like this-what do we do? Oh HaNi! Lets stop worrying and diligently study!’

<SeungJo>
I thought she was asleep but Hani silently removing herself from my arms and sitting in front of the desk looks pitiful.
Noah’s snail showing great diligence to fulfill her dream, I am proud of Oh HaNi but seeing her suffer a part of my heart stings like a knife constantly cutting it.
I watched the back of her study without saying anything. Fighting my snail, Oh HaNi!
In a little bit she slid to the side of the desk and and though time passed she did not get up.

‘She must have fallen asleep although she can’t even stay up late’

The wind blew by.
Thinking she would wake up I silently carried her and layed her on the bed, after picking out expected exam questions, explaining the problems gotten wrong and checked the problems you will need to know. This is my small present to your tired self.

<Hani>
Finally today is the test.
For now the baby and I have been overcoming this.
Because we were both studying the baby must be suffering as well when I pull my stomach a bit it hurts at times.
I am sorry I was surprised baby, sorry baby and once I stroke my stomach everything will be okay.
You must be very sincere since you will be like me. You would be very cold if you were to be like SeungJo.
Wait, what if you are like me so your not smart?
No. Baby please have SeungJo’s brain and my personality.
Please…I earnestly requested to the baby.

Do good on the test, said blunt brother in law EunJo
Hani! At least take a pill to clear your heart, said always very worried Mother
Warmly passing my lunch-my father, patting my back, one’s other father
Everyone gathered their cheers and gallantly came to the testing site.
But why do I feel dizzy? This can’t happen, Let me find more strength.
Baby! Let us both give it our all. Fighting to you too. SeungJo! Give us strength.

<SeungJo>
I was waiting for her in the front of the testing site thinking that I better take her out to eat some good things.
Fortunately the weather was not cold. You must of seen me from afar as you brightly smiled and ran my way.
Do you feel that good?
A smile that fills my heart like a full spring scenery and blossoming flowers you come running.
For a moment my heart flutters and feels content, suddenly Hani collapses in front of me.
Suddenly my heart plunges to the bottom.
“Because much stress received the mother is suffering a lot. The baby is also suffering so as the husband, please do well so stress will not be received”

Mother? I feel as if someone hit the back of my head with a hammer.

“Did you know?”
“Yeah”
“Fool, Why didn’t you tell me?”
“Because you were suffering as well from studying, I am also not prepared”

An awkward and hesitant voice came out.

“Then were you trying to have a miscarriage?”

Hani must have been very surprised at my angry voice as she opened her eyes big, nodded her head and said this while crying.

“I…thought this would be a distraction while you were studying, after we were done with our tests..”

“Why don’t you trust me? You are suffering all by yourself and I do not even know you were laughing around like a fool? Why are you making me into the bad person~!”

Looking at the tears that were about to fall from Hani’s eyes I stopped to say the sharp remarks.
Saying these remarks although I know the baby is roughly hearing them and while disregarding Hani’s eyes.
Baek Seung Jo. You have a long way to go…

While nodding her head, tear fallings, with an alarmed face and shaking voice…
“No tha..that is not it but if mother knew…give up studying…give it up…she could say that. I really wanted to be a nurse and be a good wife to you. ..(Sobs).”

Hani’s half crying half whining words and the duty to the baby have been weighing down my heart.
If she met a normal man then the baby would not suffer this much and would be content by what she has…
If I sought out more care for her…
A person who is becoming a doctor not knowing that his own wife is pregnant and leaving her suffering like that…
At once like a tide is rising liability is taking a strangle hold on me.
By myself what could I do to handle this fear and comfort the baby?
The words I’m sorry did not come out, I indefinitely felt small and was shabby, all I could do was hold Hani.
And the times where I had to swallow my sorrows all came out at once, sadly crying for a while.
How long could that small body be in pain?
As a foolish husband the scolded tears that make bones hurt come out.
The tears from a man who let the wife he loves suffer all by herself formed in my eyes.

“Truthfully I was struck with fear. I feared that I would not be able to protect my child like my mother.”

I see. You were hurting more from something that I didn’t even think of.

“It’s okay. You have me. I will undoubtedly protect you. No matter what I will not let you leave me first so do no worry. Okay?”

A promise and a kiss.
The tears on top of her cheek absorbed and the tears on top of her eyelashes.
The tears on top of her suffering red forehead too…
From now on do not cry by yourself.
By swallowing all your bittersweet tears I am swallowing all of your pain…
The times of loneliness inside your tears I asked for them to all be erased.
Slowly Hani’s crying began to die down.

With a tearful face she tells me,“We still have to tell the parents?”

“No, with mothers aggressiveness we do not know how she will react and we should wait until out tests are revealed. Once we pass cause it is a waste she can’t say that we have to stop studying. By the way! When you are pregnant I hear you want to try new things are you craving anything?”

“Are you really going to directly buy what I want?”

“Of course!”

“Thus far there hasn’t been a day where you have done so.”

Asking as if she doesn’t believe and with shiny eyes.
Was I really like this? It isn’t something I have thought about before.
Possibly even though I say that I love you I neglect the little things you do for me.
Again I am sorry. Why does love mean saying sorry?
When do you think a day will come where love is efficient enough not to say sorry?

“I want to eat strawberries. Will there be strawberries in November?”

“These days there should be house strawberries. I will buy them!”

For the times of carelessness I want to try and compensate for that so like the wind I am running in the November wind.

“Mom, Look at Hyung! Why is he hiding the strawberries he bought and running up so fast? How shameful, is he going so fast because he thinks someone is going to steal them?”

“What? Strawberries?”

From the back I hear EunJo expressing his doubt and mothers voice starting to come up.
I should of hid them and then come in.

“Here, I bought the strawberries.” “It took longer than I thought. Are there not any nearby?”
“Yeah, There weren’t any in the neighborhood so I went all the way to a big super market. I think I was caught by EunJo so eat them fast.”

“Really? Then we should both eat it.”

“Don’t share it. You eat them all by yourself. Is there anything else you want to eat?”

Suddenly spilling my heart like this Hani’s eyes look like the moon lighting up.
Within that moonlight my heart is spreading throughout my body.

“Hani! SeungJo!”
Mothers quick sense and voice that hit the back of my head.

“You guys have something that you are hiding? Answer truthfully~ Hani is pregnant, right?”

Followed by curiosity of going crazy one word stuck out.

“Yes”,

“Right? My premonition was right~! HA HA HA Why did you hide such a joyous fact? I feel hurt.”

“Truthfully…I…thought you would tell is to give up studying”

How much she felt sorry was told by Hani not being able to look at mother and respond with her head down.

“Hey, Why would I not let you study? You studies so hard that would be wasteful, when your cravings start it will be break so it is alright and by the time the baby is to be born in August it will be break again so it is perfect! SeungJo, as expected you’re a genius for perfectly timing!”

In an instant mother scheduled and balance everything. She is always busy.
Although she is so fast that it does become a problem.

“Do not worry and just give birth to a healthy baby. I will take care of everything”

“Do not have the baby wear girl clothes again.”

“No! I will never do that. Hani will give birth to a pretty girl? Right Hani~!
What are you doing? Hurry and contact your fathers. EunJo! You also think of some baby names~! Ah, We have to take a commemoration picture!”

The rapid buzz pouring out from Mother’s voice followed by joy that fills the whole house.
The suffering that has been released comes now the sunlight that makes all of you shine.

And to our baby too.

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