Dedicated to SS501 4D Leader Kim Hyun Joong




As a fan of Kim Hyun Joong for over 10 years and SS501 my first K-pop I love and follow since July 1, of 2005, yes I have seen them grow right in front of my eyes as I have grown with them too. Each member from young teens to beautiful grown men; each with their own gifts and talents. As a group of five guys they were my first love in the K-pop world. But all things whether we like or not must come to a end sometimes. In South Korea, it’s usually about five years or so for K-pop groups.

As young guys growing into adult roll, they have their own dreams and goals each guys want to do and as true fans, we need to honor their decisions and wish them the best in whatever their hearts want and wishes are.

As a K-pop group yes SS501 will forever be my number one group. Now that each members are solo artist, I am sure everyone who knows me from You Tube to Face book even working on Blogs and making my own, well yes; leader, Kim Hyun Joong is my number one bias but I have sub 98% of all SS501 songs and sub each members solo songs as well. Did I need to subtitles on K-pop videos, of course not, I’m Korean; why would I need sub? I’m born in South Korea and move to the USA. I’m bilingual fluently in both Korean and English, oh yea I started because I was not happy with the subs out there on You Tube and other places so I started as a hobby which led me to meeting and making new friends around the world which is very cool. I’m in pain 24/7 from a car accident so it helps me forget about that and it makes people happy which makes me happy. 🙂

South Korea where more then 70% of my family still live, where I have more then 50+ cousins. I love seeing my family and visiting there but would I want to live there? Hack no~!!!~ lol Sorry but you cannot read about my country from a book nor the media. You need to be Korean to fully know and understand what it’s like and how Korean people are with each other and towards others. I am not saying all Korean people are like this so don’t hate me, I’m just giving you my own life viewpoint and what I went through and saw what others have gone through. Some pretty great and other stuff very ugly. (Very judgmental selfish and ruthless) That’s just putting it lightly.

Everyone know I love Kim Hyun Joong, right? As his fan from 10 years to now I still love him. But how can I after what happen this past August? Hmm I think I explain that in my last article, (The truth isn’t always black and white, it’s shades of gray) If you haven’t read it, go read it, I maybe Kim Hyun Joong’s fan but I’m direct and honest. I tell it like it is, no BS about it.

It’s been a very tough rough and painful four months for all Kim Hyun Joong’s fans right, me included. We have seen what bringing honesty and truthfulness gives. A nutty media circus around you; an anti page about you, I can go on and on but I won’t since my arm hurt and I like to focus on some issues that’s been bugging the hack out of me for those four months of hell for Kim Hyun Joong’s fans went through but of course that’s nothing in compare to what Kim Hyun Joong has gone through himself. Yes some fans have left Kim Hyun Joong side but I don’t think they were true fans to begin with. If you’re a true fan, you stick with him or her till the end; bad or good, you don’t just walk or run away in the middle without knowing the ending; because Kim Hyun Joong going through some rough patches in his life. He’s not perfect, fans may think he is but he’s human too and make mistake too even he himself had said he is far from perfect but he tries his best and give everything he has for his fans because he knows without us, (his fans) he couldn’t be so successful. Sometimes I think fans take him for granted.

OK lets get back to my County, where I was born. Not all Koreans, but most seem to look out for their own self only. They love to see others fall from grace, especially idols political people and even the president; judgmental no empathy nor symphony towards others. I know this from my own experience as someone who’s disabled yea I see how they treat me and others who’s different from them. And oh no, everyone need to be perfect; they can’t make mistake especially idols actors oh no, they are not human; they need to be perfect in the eyes of the public. The Korean media, wow they need to be unbiased right and do their actual jobs. Yea right sure, and I see little alien in my house (Laughing) They had Kim Hyun Joong who had no prior record of any arrest, tried and sentience even before he went to the police station, to give his side of what went on. Someone wrote Kim Hyun Joong was arrested, not true. The evinces is shady at best with multiple holes in it but still our guy took full responsibility knowing full well the consequence he would be facing from media and his fans but that’s why we love him he doesn’t hide nor run away, he stood firm without fear while the whole media were saying all over the Korean TV online blogs tweets etc went nuts. I am not sure why it’s taking so long for Korean DA to make a decision? Either close the case or arrest him. Don’t they have better things to do with tax payers money geez. The media outlet are like ticks that smell blood and won’t let go till they take all your blood.

Our guy is one gentleman indeed, he could have leak his ex name out to the public but no he want to protect her, wow most guys wouldn’t be so forgiving. What about his Co, Ke? The last time I check they haven’t post nothing on our guy since August. They are keeping quiet to protect him some one had said, yea sure they are. Do you really think SMtown or cjes or YG would let their top star blow in the wind like Ke is doing to Kim Hyun Joong? Of course not they would be suing everyone from media and so on. I am not saying to boy cut Ke, that’s up to the fans and no one can tell any fan what to do, its their choice (Free will) I am just glad our guy was smart enough to sign with a big Japanese Co in Japan so he can do what he love most that’s make music.

I know we have been voting non stop for Kim Hyun Joong where ever his name is. Some fans been voting without sleeping eating, even in pain even for 3-4 days especially at Yahoo Buzz award. I am speaking as a fan and for myself not this blog but lets call it for what it is, Kim Hyun Joong got droop…rob…blind sided. He got the most votes by his fans as top artist of Asia and huh what happened we got whiplash. Yahoo change the award to whole new category I never ever heard of, but ok let’s move on as Kim Hyun Joong has. We all know everyone know he won top artist of Asia voted by his fans. (Feeling a bit better to get that out)

Finally there are light in this nightmare. Kim Hyun Joong world tour DVD is selling out like pancakes despite being expensive especially in Japan. And what, our guy is out doing what he does best; helping others in need. That’s our only one and why we love him. When things seem like everything is falling apart, Kim Hyun Joong still gives back and help others in need. He still has his big smile and his golden heart.

Kim Hyun Joong hiding, in exile…far from that and I been telling a few people no he was not hiding but working. I don’t want to toot my own hone but (TOOT TOOT) lololol And now you guys know he wasn’t in exile nor hiding he was working on a new album coming out next year call “Still” 12 songs in all with two new songs and a tour starting in late Jan. to mid Feb. 2015 in Japan and I know this album will hit number one like all his other Japanese albums has. It’s been a hard tough road back that would had ruin any idol but of course our only one is one of kind and won’t give up nor his fans will never give up on him.

In conclusion I think we should do as the same as thing Kim Hyun Joong is doing and do something to help others who’s need it; what ever that maybe, opening a door for some one who’s in a wheelchair or giving money to a church/ charity or give a coat you don’t need anything is good. Just be positive to you and your family and friends. Don’t be so judgmental wait till you know the whole story, treat others as you want to be treated. EVERYONE deserve fairness kindness and respect. Lots of love too. Our only one never give up nor sell his value. He loves his fans and we love him. Kim Hyun Joong, he always shows grace even under fire and for that’s an another reason why he amaze me and earn my respect. KIM HYUN JOONG rinsed again and show all who thought his career is over and he’ll never recover. Well, Kim Hyun Joong shows and proves they were wrong~! His fans are very proud and love him even more now~!!!~


24 responses

  1. Stav

    What you wrote is so wonderful, my dear Jackie unnee ^_^ ❤ I really love it!!! Thank you so much!!!!

    Friday, December 26, 2014 at 4:57 am

    • Stav

      Excited waiting for HJ’s comeback!!!

      Friday, December 26, 2014 at 4:58 am

  2. nhor

    yes ..Ms. Jackie..KHJ promise to comeback when he last said in LDF fm..and even we had many heartache we got along in 3 he is announcing his sched that we really waiting for….^__^

    Thursday, December 25, 2014 at 11:32 am

  3. realmente todo lo escrito es la demostración de el respeto , confianza y amor que tienen las fans de kim hyun joong . Y esperemos que este año nuevo sea un año de prosperidad y éxitos para todos en especial para el chico 4D

    Wednesday, December 24, 2014 at 8:42 am

  4. hyunnei lee

    Thank you for this article….cant help my tears….khj we will be waiting for your new album…no matter what we,your true fans will gonna support you….now i am very happy….

    Tuesday, December 23, 2014 at 4:51 pm

  5. taeborum

    Thank you dear Jackie for this great article^^ 🙂 Kim Hyun Joong is a human being with his nobleness and weakness and whatever his life is struggled with difficult moments, we all still love, respect and support him forever. We share everything with him as his big family!
    All what I care is to see him happy and content. My Xmas gift is to hear he is healthy and wealthy! And to listen to his new Japanese Album ‘GEMINI’!!! Hwaiting! 😉
    I appreciate your faithful love for our Only One Kim Hyun Joong and wish you a very Merry Christmas! ❤ ♥ ~

    Tuesday, December 23, 2014 at 4:37 pm

  6. Patty Rios

    my friend is that few will continue on their side after so many lies that he said the but a true henecia will remain at the foot of the Canyon thank you because is that your you’re one of them, and that many years were so

    the is unique and we love him so by its nobility and humility of all…

    Hyun joong always with you my beloved leader

    Tuesday, December 23, 2014 at 1:01 am

  7. vinita

    Dear Jackie

    Everyday I come to this blog. Sometimes a few times in a day. That’s how much I like him.
    His scandal n how he was bashed. I m sad. I choose to stay with him. I don’t know what is true or media circus. I jz hope everything goes well for him n he is still being loved.

    BTW may I ask. What is ur disability? Thank you for all ur subs.

    Monday, December 22, 2014 at 10:52 pm

  8. Bella

    Dear Jackkie,

    Thank you very much for such a great article. I read it without breath every words you said did touch my heart . Hyun Joong introduced me the best of SK’s culture. Before I knew Hyun Joong I think Korean people are rough and selfish . The only good thing about Korean in my eyes then was they are tough and strong that’s all. Korea was out of my concern then. Hyun Joong did change my view of SK by 360 degree. I learned to appreciate Korean culture , its food and its people.. Started to listen to K- music and k-pop. I became HJ’s fan 3 years ago not because of his look but his personality. I admire his honesty and sincerity. I found his words might be hard but his heart is gentle and sensitive.

    However the way SK’s media played with the scandal and the way he was treated by media and SK’s public has brought me back to the old attitude toward SK. It seems SK’s society always ready to hate and blame on someone. Justice is not that important if they can see a well-known figure fall down. It is the most hurtful and painful for me to witness a person being destroyed and mistreated. In my opinion Hyun Joong is really a true man and a gentleman in his heart and soul.

    I love so much your last paragraph . It did nurture my heart. It’s so heart warming and powerful in the same time.

    Marry Christmas and may all your wishes become true.

    Monday, December 22, 2014 at 9:38 pm

    • Tina

      Hi Bella and everyone, I just want to say that people believe the media, so what happened to Hyun Joong is all blamed on the media alone, it’s like this everywhere in the world, the media is looking for any news that they can make scandals out of just to earn money.

      Also please everyone don’t hate the SK society, after all Hyun Joong came from this society, it’s not perfect I know, but what is? everything has it’s pros and cons right?

      And may just say my opinion that the haters who comment online are probably people who don’t have a life, I mean a person who is not a KHJ fan and has work or study or something in life to care about would not I think have time to judge people and post hateful comments everywhere, am I right?

      Monday, December 22, 2014 at 9:57 pm

    • lena

      Amen. Agree had the same problem but because of him started to watch and listen but they have turn me back around. I do not watch K – dramas like I use to but it had nothing to do with the problems they gave to Kim Hyun-joong. It has to do with their story lines, very predictable, only faces change but the same drama. No, not going back to American tv but to books. Happy holidays

      Tuesday, December 23, 2014 at 12:14 am

  9. fanJoong

    Thank you, Jakie, for great article.
    Miss him so much

    Monday, December 22, 2014 at 12:20 pm

  10. KHJ fans united as one! Thank you for your post. My thoughts exactly. Have a blessed holiday with family and friends. Get better soon.

    Monday, December 22, 2014 at 8:32 am

  11. lena

    Sorry, should have been K E let him go n they were making a deal for him behind the scenes.

    Monday, December 22, 2014 at 8:30 am

  12. lena

    Thank you, what a great article. For a thought, what if keep let him go do he could sign with the Japanese company? Again, as stated give the benefit of a doubt. Again, thank you and happy holiday to all. Kim Hyun-joong, be bless and welcome back.

    Monday, December 22, 2014 at 8:27 am

  13. atiq

    ohh..Thanks jackie….thanks so much…im crying reading this…T__T
    What else can i say…he’s unbreakable and will be loved more and more….T__T

    Monday, December 22, 2014 at 7:29 am

  14. Noya

    Jackie sweetie you are a real Gem (always) this is soo beautiful written. Please don’t ever consider yourself less than others just because you maybe can’t do all, because you are better – you have soul and compassion and understanding and you have a bright and open mind. Be proud and happy you are in a better place than those who look down on you, they lack understanding and mostly compassion, they are empty shells.
    I think we all got it by now that SK society is living by double standards and are judgemental to their own celeb, attacking them viciously like they are all saints there.
    They have found KHj as the one to blame for all, and his case dragging on soo much is just making you wonder Who is behind all this circus? cause this is not normal. KE in my opinion is just a joke, pathetic and laughable at thei incompetency to deal with this.
    Bottom line the truth will surface one way or other and we all know that Karma is a bitch and all get what they deserve in the end.

    KHJ will continue to shine in spite of them and SK is just part of the world (as someone said in another blog) the world is bigger.

    To all wishing you a Merry Christmas with joy and happines and a better Year to come!

    Monday, December 22, 2014 at 4:20 am

    • Svetlana

      I again had tears, you said fine. All what you wrote coincides with how I thought these terrible months. I often think that people in SK don’t understand what a treasure they have, and the fans too are taking it for granted (excuse me please). I want to add that not only in Asia, but in Russia and Europe, many love him as an artist and as a person. Very much we love and always will be.

      Monday, December 22, 2014 at 3:22 pm

  15. samy

    Well!!! Nothing to say Unnee. …just a big thank you for what you said! !……
    I am really really happy to know kim hyun joong is still strong and confident. ..
    PS: i have always like kim hyun joong oppa! BUT! ! I liked him more after that “nonsense scandal” I became a big fan of him since then…
    FIGHTING MY ONLY One 🙂 😉 😀 )♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

    Monday, December 22, 2014 at 4:08 am

  16. Tina

    Thank you, beautiful words 🙂

    Monday, December 22, 2014 at 4:00 am

  17. PHXann

    Great article! 👏👏👏 You have just voiced out what sooooo many of KHJ fans would like to say. Appreciate the time and effort you spent doing this despite your physical pain. Pls be well. You will be in my special prayers (with KHJ) as I am visiting the Eternal City now. I am not Korean but it’s funny how I want to approach any Korean looking or speaking person I see (anywhere I travel) and tell them I am a fan of KHJ.

    Monday, December 22, 2014 at 3:37 am

  18. Cagome

    Special!Thank you!

    Monday, December 22, 2014 at 2:06 am

  19. I miss you Kim Hyun Joong.
    Good night ^_^

    Monday, December 22, 2014 at 1:49 am

  20. Reblogged this on The ramblings of an overthinker and commented:
    Couldn’t have said it better!

    Monday, December 22, 2014 at 1:47 am

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