[Pexers Write-Ups] Battling the Inner Demons
Physical things register on a scale. When we travel we want to keep within our limit as much as possible dreading to be told we have ‘excess baggage’. But it is easier to throw away our excess baggage or to even pay for it.
Our emotions carry weights as well but that we can’t measure but only feel that burden. We say ‘I have a heavy heart’ or ‘my shoulder feel as if am carrying the world’. Our emotions are harder to handle. No amount of sleep nor alcohol can fade them away. Perhaps just momentarily forget or blur them in our consciousness.
Many times it is not so much as having caused someone pain, but worse is having to live with guilt and regrets, and the ‘what if I had not done that ‘ litany. The feeling of disappointment with one’s self is simply overwhelming. To think what a person has gone through to be where one is now and saw it crumble is devastating. It is the battle of one’s inner demons.
A solo fight.
The battle is about all the things that went wrong. It is the difficulty of forgiving oneself. It is the burden no one can know but the person affected. It is that inward blaming.
It is easy to say to the person to forget what has happened when reminders are aplenty. There is a need to perhaps change places so that a new perspective may be gained from all that has happened. But the afflicted person needs a person to hear his view of things who isn’t judgemental, to figuratively hold his hands towards the path of healing.
Maybe one needs to write down his thoughts though they need to be processed. Did he hold himself to a certain standard or expectations? If he felt remorse that is good to correct what needs to be corrected. To not let that guilt develop into shaming and self-loathing. Worse is self-destruction.
From the way things seem to be even from afar KIm Hyun Joong is wounded. He needs to heal from all that beating. From all those thorns that tore through his heart. From all the accusations he received and quietly kept within.
He has courage to own his mistake and responsibilities. I salute him for turning to his parents for help and for his parents to show they are there for him. Always.
Though we cannot know nor feel his exact pains we all have been there one time or the other. It is part of our journey through life. We are after all human with all our imperfections. We have our weaknesses and strengths. We used different strategies to balance things up.
Time is a a good healer. So is love He need space to clear his thoughts. Someone to tell him he is a good person and for him to believe it. To love himself again.
He will have scars. It is good to have scars for it means the wound is healed. A person’s medal for his battles -battling his inner demons. Emerging the victor, he knows only he can pick himself up as he has done before.
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Reposting AprilStarr’s Comments here ….
There’s a name I came across to refer to this affliction on invasion of privacy : pathological intrusiveness.
The problem is someone is feeding info to the press.You know who that is. If she gets stressed as claimed, whose fault is that ?
If there is one putting all the blame on HJ at this point, he/she forgets one thing or just a case of selective amnesia. It takes two to tango. And the two are not children either. Two consenting adults.
Let their private lives remain private.
Btw, it’s getting tiring that there are people still going back and forth to his assault case which already went through two layers of SK Judicial system-the police and prosecution. He was fined for the one case he admitted bodily harm and apologized.
Is this system a laughing matter then to those who refuse to lay the case to rest?
Stop the madness of the court of biased public opinion. It is just spinning in a vicious cycle.