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[Pexers Write-Ups] A Letter Straight from the Heart – #waiting4KHJ #neverleaveKHJ #Justice4KHJ #Pray4KHJ

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A Letter Straight from the Heart

Author:  AprilStarr

Amidst all the legalities, media articles, online comments rational, some spiteful and even irrelevant here came a letter from KHJ. Perhaps it didn’t contain earth shaking revelations but just a heartfelt written communications – honest,direct and straight to the point.

It felt good reading his very words no ‘motherhood statements’, no inciting the emotion with big words like ‘ flagrant abuse of human rights’ that are at best empty though all noise. His words simply register very human, unpretentious though he is a man, fearlessly expressing what he actually feels.

He wrote us to hopefully cure the inaccuracies and misunderstandings floating around hurting not only him and his family but also the fans who trusted and believed in him.

Here is the man who valued his privacy and yet he bared and peeled himself to the core for all to see. His weaknesses he wasn’t ashamed to admit humbly. Yet that is where we see his strengths . His resolve to seek justice not only for his sake but for all who invested for it to triumph no matter what it takes.

But the most touching part is when he wrote to the child he hasn’t seen nor held yet in his arms. The usual ‘the child got the looks of the parent ‘ remarks he had missed. He is already regretting not being there during a child’s once in a lifetime event.

What if the child is not his? What if it is?

What he wrote tugs at the heart, because we know know where it came from -straight from his heart. Not out of character, but the KHJ that we have always known.

Credit: sudaru1103

English Translation Credit:

Translation based on HENECIAWINGLEE’s chinese translation on HJ’s letter which was delivered to media at press conference by Atty Lee on 17 September 2015.

Hi everyone, I’m KHJ. It has been awhile since I greeted everyone through letters and frankly I don’t really know how I should raise this matter. Due to recent online heated discussions, I’m really sorry that everyone saw a ‘not-good’ side of me. Even for myself, I’m also tired and sick of it. So I could imagine how everyone felt about it. Henceforth, to prevent any more misunderstandings, I should state my position directly on those few points which I was not able to share previously.

During enlistment time the situation was chaotic and I was not able to properly bid farewell to those who love and support me. In the end I enlisted with my head hung low, like a guilty person. It seemed like only yesterday yet I’m already a private first class now! For the past 1 year, while under everyone’s close scrutiny had made me felt uneasy and even to the point of feeling suffocating, it was also a period of time I had to myself. Thanks to comforting words from my training officers, I’ve grown/ matured and gradually becoming healthy again like before. Once again, I want to covey both my gratitude and apologies to everyone. Even though I would like to formally apologize to everyone when this whole matter is finally settled, I hope that there will not be any more misunderstanding, hence I would like to convey the following points to everyone.

Heard news about KHJ refused paternity test. But since enlistment till 12 September, the only news I heard was that the baby had been born, not even news of the delivery. It was from news reports that I found out about the delivery and that i had refused to go for paternity test. I thought such reporting may have surfaced because I have not said a single word about it. Actually I’ve already completed all the necessary info and preparation for the DNA test in the army. I decided to wait till 12 September as I thought the other side (A side) would get in touch with me. I’ve insisted on doing the paternity test as this is the only legal way for me to take responsibility. Although I’m determined and would really like to raise the child, but it is not something that is up to me to decide. Hence, I’m sorry that I could only say I will take the legal responsibility for the child. Even though it may sound like a hypocrite, but for the sake of the child, I would still like to say this. Even now as I write this letter with a trembling hand, becoming a military personnel made my mood even more subtle. Unable to be like other fathers to bless their child when the child is born, my mind kept thinking if the child would resemble me or not. Not being able to be with the child on the precious day of birth, I will forever feel apologetic to the child.

Every night before I sleep I would ask myself 10 times if I’m really prepared and if I know what to do. As custody of the child depends on the Court’s decision, I’m feeling somewhat depressed. The other party (A) had only informed me of the gender of the child but refused to disclose anything on the blood type or the hospital they are in. In addition, they have been lying in order to stop me from trying to approach the child. I may not be a qualified dad but I will definitely take responsibility. As the father of the child, there are many things I would like to say but I decided I won’t do so here as it would not be appropriate. Even though I’m really curious and would like to see the child very much, but I have to endure it now and strive to become an upright father, taking full responsibility for the child.

I sincerely hope that the child will not get exposed no matter where the child is. I’m sorry for the lack of orderliness in this letter and inadequacy in conveying my thoughts. i promise I will return as a more matured and healthy person to greet everyone.

(Note: Please note this is purely based on Chinese translation which I did not reference to the actual letter in Korean. So there may be slightly different interpretation but the gist of the message is there. It is a heartfelt letter from HJ and I can empathize how much it hurts him.)


8 responses

  1. fanJoong

    Fighting, Hyun Joong ah.
    Your fans always stand be your site.

    Wednesday, September 23, 2015 at 10:10 am



    Wednesday, September 23, 2015 at 7:23 am

  3. Bella

    Thank you so much for all updates.

    The below is a part of letter that was missing in the report that showed in English online medias like allkpop and the rest. This is the version that translated directly from Korean to English by sunsun_sky@

    ” At the moment, the other side only informed me of the sex of the baby but nothing abt the blood type nor the hospital. And they have been telling lies so that I can’t approach the baby. Thou I am an unfit father, I will take full responsibility for the baby by all means. The other side said they still do not know the blood type of the baby, but this is the part that I can’t understand at all. They dont even tell the blood type to the baby’s father but just insist on suing for no reason… It is true that I can’t help but think, in the end, it’s all for money again. ”

    [Atty Lee said HJ wrote it not under the assumption that the baby is his, but just in case the baby is his. If his, he was concerned for all the hurts that the baby will get constantly and tremendously.]

    Trans Cr: sunsun_sky

    Hyun Joong Fighting .!!!

    Stay strong, stay calm and stay confident..
    Please think of yourselves first and do the best for yourselves.

    I believe in your good-deed and proud to be your fan.

    Monday, September 21, 2015 at 11:46 pm

    • Thanks Bella for adding this here. This A is doing her best to destroy KHJ. Hopefully, there will be better results on tomorrow’s hearing.

      Tuesday, September 22, 2015 at 12:39 am

  4. taeborum

    We can see how jealousy can seek to destroy what is beautiful and perfect. The World is cruel and Kim Hyun Joong is no exception to this attempt to maliciously. I trust in God and I know that the right will triumph. We have just to continue to have faith and to pray hard. God will give us victory. Fighting!!!

    Monday, September 21, 2015 at 6:57 pm

  5. He has such a beautiful voice and a beautiful personality. How can people treat him so cruel. I may not know him personally, but I’ve been following him since Boys Over Flowers I haven’t heard anything bad about. He has never been in the news about doing any crimes. Or harming anyone. Don’t let anyone change your heart be who you are and have always been. Keep making your family, friends and fans proud. We will never leave you no matter what. That’s from the heart. I’m from the US stay safe. Keep your head up and don’t ever give up. God has this worked out for you already just leave it in his hands. i could feel your pain in that letter. But one thing I have to say, you and your family need wait until the DNA test is done before you’ll claim this baby. Cause there is a change it may or may not be yours. I don’t want you’ll in any more pain then you are already. If they aloud you to go home on vacation don’t go near or talk or text her about anything. If you go to court on the Sept. 23, 2015. Don’t let her near, don’t go nowhere with her at all. If she want to talk tell your lawyer to talk to her. If she comes anywhere near you call the police. If someone knock on your door, and don’t say anything, or you can’t see them don’t open your door. Be around people at all time. I don’t want anything happening to you. Hire some security to be with you at all times. Inside your house, where ever you go. You never know where she is.

    Monday, September 21, 2015 at 3:59 pm

  6. Beautifully put. That letter from KHJ 😦 Just heartbreaking – and so totally like him based on everything we’ve ever seen from him.

    Monday, September 21, 2015 at 10:01 am

    • Love him and waite for him. this is our kim hyun joong we know.

      Monday, September 21, 2015 at 12:46 pm

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